earth belongs to everyone, every living thing, humans, cats alike

why do we live in a world full of ignorant humans...

jus came home from the neighbouring shops... saw some little strays ard. always worried abt this strays being targets to idiotic psychos or naughty brats who deserved to be scolded. n true enuff the strays were harassed by some idiotic brat!!!! he was with this lady in her late 50s /60s. i saw them from afar and the kid was holding some string n swinging it like a whip. i jus din wan anything to happen to the strays so i jus stood near to see what he was going to do.... he was almost inches to the meow, but the meow oso ran away b4 he could perform any idiotic acts. i only walked on when i saw them move on with their path, but took a glance again.. n here the kid try to do his retarded acts... b4 he could reach the stray , i voiced out to halt him. This time he quickly scrambled to his granny side for cover...#@%^&$@# the granny wasn't happy tat i had to raise my voice at him..she asked what was wrong.. i said..i jus voiced out b4 he put the stray n himself into trouble. she said, the stray is not yours. whats my problem... i told her off.. they are also part of this world.. why should they be deprived of the freedom to roam in Peace!!!! she say its jus a stray!!!! damn it... old B**** i asked if i did the same to tat idiotic grandson of hers will she be happy? guess wats her reply?? she said how can it be the same ? OMG!!!!! i hate such selfish , waste of resources bunch of living things. argh....

so angry... why does the earth deserves such ple.. argh... enuff of this crap... what love the earth campaign? jus a waste of time.. this tings such not be advertised at all.. we should be doing our bit as part of this earth. why mus be taught? hiya... humans... animals.....plants... all belong to this round thing that call earth... not jus humans ..... we don't own it... i jus cant get my frustration out!!!! i jus wanna do the same to this kids who have no respect. no parents to teach the right ting i supposed!!!! haiz....

animals need our voice too.... they too live in this world...

love love love

how time flies.....we got back for abt 8 months.....actuli not very sure abt e exact date....but shld be ard there.... dun koe where we are heading....looking at sis fuss over her upcoming wedding (shld be 2006 la), i dun koe how tings will be for me....will he be e one???will love really bring us thru ??
i dun koe......sigh...love hav to be really strong....love have to be e only one....to be faithful...but how many ple in e world could be faithful to their other one.......God made 2 to be come 1......God made woman for man....this is wat it shld be......everyone hav their other part somewhere out there.......but until u find e special 1 , u hav to keep searching n wait for e rite one to knock on e door.... but will everyone choose e one God gave them??? love can be reallly confusing........really dun koe wats there for me...... :<

thoughts of the week...

dun koe wat happen lately...i been feeling very down n frustrated.. keep feeling as if i hav so many tings weighing my mind down.dun koe wat is wrong or where is amiss...not sure where the problem lies....so not sure how to solve...how to resolve this "burden". i jus koe i feel very "tired" jus feel very tired each time....jus feel tat each day these tings keep piling up....nv go away.....when it seem to be gone, it resurface again...cos i realised it nv went away....jus realised i was running away from it day by day...
drag myself ard day by day.....week by week....this is no ending.....no finish line for me until i find my way out..
all i koe is to avoid n run away.....wat am i supposed to do????help!!!!
wondering if God really can hear....wondering when will i be saved.....wondering if anyone can help or understands.....mayb quite hard.cos i myslef dun even know where does the problem lies....guess jus hav to keep running out of track.......

busy bee...

hmmm haven been blogging much...been really busy wif work n doing alot of catching up wif frens...my schedule is freaking packed every week...haven hAD much rest or time alone....i guess life is such.....each day u are busy working or busy studying..no matter how tired...each day jus go by like tat.....n worst still spore dun hav places where u can really enjoy wifthout really spending money....but found a good place some time ago...no sure if it was a reservoir or a river...but still e view was fantasctic at nite....really cool me n calms me down.....somewhere tat i dun feel stress from e work load or busy schdule..but i din go there wif a happy heart....i was there wif a heavy sad heart ....but anyhow, i still found a nice place...hahah...wun tell u where....wait all humans go there n ruin e place....
hmm i love to hav places like a serene lake where u could really relax there....but sigh....dun tink spore has such places.....all buildings filled wif nosiy adults n irriatating kids....every where is like tat....sigh.......
aniwae really wish i koe wat i wan in life....be it love life or my career....really lost n jus taking a step by a time...so i hope...eash step will mean clearer image to my future ahead...i'll pray sincerely tat god will show a way....the path ahead dun need to be smooth sailing.... i koe tat is needed in life to let u treasure cherish wat u have now in ur life....time flies...im 21...age of responsiblities....age of e so called freedom which i feel is is e age to more responsibilties n burden...sigh...wish i nv grow up...always hav my parents to make my decision in life...hahah...but dream on...i will hav to grow up..handle tings on my own...be like a adult...sigh.....
aniwae got to go....ciao....enjoy life while it lasts.....live life like there is no tomorrow.. =>

thinking tots...

hmm been busy lately...started work at Laneige...quite fun...only tiring part is the staning...wah..super leg pain.....hmmm how long will i stay here or how long can i stay....hmm seems quite confusing....may be abit naive in such tings...feel its worst than the past jobs i did....but...cant judge anything by first impression...as long as i do my tings well...i guess i be okie here...
hmmm....i guess i will work abt a yr...befre futhering my studies.or do so office job.....hmmm but wat office job will i do?i tink another deg will do me good...so i guess i'll be back studying....den look for a job which will probably lasts.....
hmmm lately some tings happen.....had a misunderstanding wif someone......hmmm has e person start to realise e importance of me in its life?? wat im going to do abt it...im still afraid......i guess wat ple say is true...."only realise one's importance after u lose them"....but will everyone be given a second chance??are we the one who determined if others get e second chance?or do we leave it to God n fate?? hmmm im still in dilemma......but i haven had much time to tink...i guess got to take tings slow.......will e past still be my present....or will it be jus a past...a memory???hmmm i dun koe.....dun wish to tink...abit scared....
ple out there reading......jus cherish n treasure every moment everyday on earth....do not neglect the ones u love....ur loved ones n the one who may be ur lifetime partner....no matter how bad tings are, these ple will be by ur side....Of cos not forgetting ur frens who also stick by u all these while.....n who had always been supportive of u.....learn to appreciate their presence.thier existence...witthout them..wats e point of living in this world?alone n sad...........dun leave ur frens or loved ones......n dun do tings to make them leave....hold them tight...hold them dear...hold them near to ur heart.....
lastly....wish everyone be happy n blessed......

long week

Finally i have time for my comp...hahah...been busy tis week...having a new job...preparing for it...went for uniform fitting....which i cant even wear "s"....got to super tailor make...hahah...tink only i can wear tat..hahah.. went to hunt for white shoes.....hahah...unknown..i bought 2 pairs........dun even koe if i can stay long at tis job...den still buy 2 pairs.. =>...hmmm i will be working for Laneige.. a new korean brand in spore...went for e trainin yesterday n today.....luckily today can come back early......phew.....freaking alot of tings to rember....dun koe if i can do well in it....abit stressful......hahah..mus be wonddering, how come haven start work got stress le....hmmm  cos the so called guarantor for me is answerable for me....hmm so my performance hav to be super good...i not sure if i can do  well..cos i haven been it such line b4.....sales yes....but not cosmectic sales....hmmm but i will try my best....

hmmm been busy...haven been thinking of wat is going to be like when i start working.....hmmm guess got to take a step at a time..super tired...sigh....hmm guess tats e summary...tis week is all abt work... = >

lets see wat happening tings can happen later in e evening  n the weekends = >

sigh....confused

hi...had a bad week...everything seems to go against me...mayb its becos of me...Lots of tings i do  or did, seems  wrong....i dun koe wat i shld do..mayb i do tink abt e rite ting to do...yet my messed up mind  is going mad....haywire......lost again.....im sorry for making ple worry...im sorry for not doing wat i said....but mus  i be accountable to everyone??am i living for myself or for others? ot be e rational  person jus to fit in??? i tink i seriously screwed up.....but somethings are beyond controll...though some may say  "u hav to be in control" but come to tink of  it....if everyone can be in control of every  situation....there will not be mistakes n wrongs in tis unfair world....im not defending myself or wat i had done...but i jus feel evryone makes mistakes n everyone will face setbacks.....n everyone deserves a second chance or even upmteen times of chances....im sorry...but i jus koe n believe tat one shld be forgiven....jus becos of a mistake, we going to condem them???i dun koe...mayb im silly...mayb im mad...but that is my faith...my trust in human.tat no human is born evil....
hiya im not in e rite mind to tink....mayb tat's wat everyone feels... but who  can say tat they nv been thru times when they couldn tink properly....sigh...i dun koe...do it mean tat doing wat seems to be e wrong ting is wrong??who can jugde who's rite n who's wrong???all i believe is no one can....the only jugde i believe is God...tats my belief...i will only go before God for him to jugde my  life n my actions....do we hav to tink  n be affected to wat ple say?why do we hav to do wat others say???i means sometimes views differ......hiya....i dun koe....is it tat impt to consider wat others  say.... is it fair?? arent we suppose to be in control of our own lifes??i jus feel tat everyone shld be fair...if there's a need for soul searching.....everyone pls do it.... can u say tat u nv do anything wrong in ur life???hav u done anything irrational before???i guess e ans is yes.....i jus wan fairness...i dun wish to be said when tings goes wrong.....im only acconutable for myself....not to anyone......
if i need to be happy...shldn i be e 1 to feel wat i feel will make me happy???mayb i might get hurt again....but i truly believe tat u might get hurt walking.....but if u afraid of being hurt.....does tat means u nv walk again?if falling down is part n parcel of life...shldn we get thru tis now???yes mayb everyone is afraid of being hurt in a relationship....but will u stop loving if u get hurt once??will u stop loving cos u r afraid??? i jus wish to try everything again....i jus wan to believe in the hope tat everyone will change over time....whether it turn out to be good or bad...i jus hope i can giv it a go again...im stubborn i koe.....but i dun wan t giv up cos im afraid...i dun wish to giv up until i try....even if it means having e high possibility of getting hurt in e process.....
i jus wish everyone will understand tis side of me....but if no one will...i wun force...cos every person views on a same ting or problem is different......no 2 person in e whole is made e same.....i jus wan to be happy.......i jus wan to be treated fairly...but if i dun n caNt get  e understanding of ple i need....i tink tis is e path i got to go thru all by myself......